The thought of another day at school really put me down the next morning. Tommy and I had just eaten breakfast and were waiting on Tommy's dad to get out of the bathroom.
Tommy, I said staring at my feet, I don't know if I can go back there...I..I want to drop out..or transfer at least.
He lifted my chin up, you'll be fine, he said smiling. I'll protect you I promise, he said as his dad came down the hallway.
All ready kids? He asked grabbing his keys.
Yeah, I said sighing, we're ready.
When we got to school there were no notes on any lockers, nothing jumping out at me, everything was normal at least until lunch. I was walking back to where Tommy was seated, tray in hands, when a foot shot out of nowhere. I fell and spilled my lunch all over me, Tommy rushed to help me up but the damage had already been done. I looked up to see who had tripped me, and saw Christi smirking.
Oops, she laughed, watch where you're going cow!
As Tommy helped me up someone mooed, and tears spilled out of my eyes.
Hey hey, it's okay, Tommy said wiping my eyes.
No! Tommy I can't do this! It's to much! I yelled, running toward the doors. He said something but I wasn't listening, I wanted out of there. I found myself in the nurses office and told her I was sick, and had spilled my lunch on me when I threw up. She gave me some new clothes and let me lay down. After lunch was over she made me go back to class to face more hell.
Finally when the school day ended, Tommy and I were walking out the school hand in hand. We were talking about a test that counted for 45% of our grade that was coming up when I stopped dead in my tracks. So surprised Tommy almost fell, and jerked to a stop too.
What are you staring at? He asked but I barely heard him, across the parking lot the devil himself was looking around. Looking for me. Tommy finally spotted him too, and tried to pull me towards the school again but it was to late. My father started walking toward us, waving and trying to look happy to see us, I almost fainted.
Life as a Nobody
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
sorry!!:)
sorry the chapters are gonna be weird and out of order cuz instead of writing chapter 14 right now i'm going thru and editing the old crappy chapters, just watch wat order u read them in :P
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Chapter 13-Cross My Heart
About 5 months, the doctor told Carl when we came back from my checkup. I'd say somewhere around May 21st the baby will be ready to come out.
I hadn't taken my eyes off Tommy since I came out from the back rooms, he looked excited but yet scared. It was then I noticed the policeman standing beside Carl, my eyes went wide.
May I talk to you for a minute Miss...Plaisance? He asked looking down at a notepad.
Um...Tommy, who's this?
I'm Officer Sanchiez, I'd like to question you about...Billy if you don't mind. He replied glancing at his notepad again.
Okay...I said, shaking as I sat down at a nearby chair, hoping that his interview wouldn't take long.
So can you tell me about your encounter with Billy? What happened exactly? He wrote notes while I explained to him everything I remembered. It seemed he'd never run out of questions, I kept glancing at the wall clock hoping I could go home but the interview was dragging on. One last question Stacey, why you? Why do you think he picked you?
I was dumbfounded, not knowing how to answer him without loosing it I just stared. Finally after a couple minutes I said, What the hell kind of questoin is that? Do you think I know why I got raped? Why he chose ME? I've been asking that question since it happened! Why? Why me? Aren't YOU supposed to figure that out?
He looked from me to Carl, then back to me not knowing how to reply. Okay, that should be enough, we'll be contacting you in a couple days after we get Mr. Saner's side of the story. Officer Sanchiez said, getting up and shaking Carl's hand.
Thank you Officer, Carl smiled. Well, now that the rough parts over lets go home, shall we?
Tommy sat in the back with me on the ride home, with his arm around me and my head resting on his shoulder. Are you okay, he whispered in my ear.
I don't know Tommy...are you sure we can go through with this?
What you mean you NOT have your baby? Stacey, it's way to late to have an abortion or anything like that, plus I may not be it's real dad but if you would let me I really look forward to being a father figure to it. Speaking of which, when can you find out what sex it is?
Oh Tommy, I love you, I said as I kissed him on the cheek. The doctor said probably next month we can look.
He smiled, I love you too Stacey.
I love you both! Carl said, I looked at Tommy trying to not laugh at the look on his face.
When we got home Carl sat us down in the living room, a serious look on his face. Stacey, as you should know babies cost a lot of money, we're going to have to figure something out here.
I'll get a job to pay for it, I replied. I hadn't even thought of the cost of a baby.
I'll help too, Tommy added holding my hand.
One other thing, for a pregnant girl the couch can not be comfortable. I'll be back later, Carl said grabbing his car keys. You kids stay here, don't do anything crazy. He left, a couple hours later he came back with a truck following him. A couple men unloaded something out of the bed and carried it to the guest bedroom. Box after box went into the room, finally everyone left and Carl disapeared, about an hour later Carl came out and threw a bandana at me. Cover your eyes, he said smiling, he looked so excited I thought he was going to explode.
Okay...I said and wrapped the bandana around my eyes. Tommy helped me feel my way to the guest room where an eager Carl waited. I heard Tommy gasp and I ripped my bandana off. My mouth fell open, layed out in front of me were a crib yet to be put together, a baby dresser, and other things needed for a nursery. Carl...what is all this?
Well I figured the baby would need a place to stay...and if I can trust you kids you may sleep in Tommy's room.
Where am I going to sleep? Tommy asked panickly.
In your room, Carl replied. I'm sure you both understand the consequences of sex so I can trust you right?
Carl, you're my hero. I said, I can't believe you did all this!
Later, in Tommy's room ready to fall asleep Tommy poked my side.
Yeah?
I just wanted to make sure you were awake, he said.
I'm awake, I said groggily.
I love you Stacey.
I smiled in the dark, Forever?
Forever, he said, I could see the faint outline of his smile.
You promise?
Cross my heart and hope to die, he said.
I love you too Tommy I said and wrapped my arms around him. We held eachother until we fell asleep, and I thought nothing could be more perfect then that moment.
I hadn't taken my eyes off Tommy since I came out from the back rooms, he looked excited but yet scared. It was then I noticed the policeman standing beside Carl, my eyes went wide.
May I talk to you for a minute Miss...Plaisance? He asked looking down at a notepad.
Um...Tommy, who's this?
I'm Officer Sanchiez, I'd like to question you about...Billy if you don't mind. He replied glancing at his notepad again.
Okay...I said, shaking as I sat down at a nearby chair, hoping that his interview wouldn't take long.
So can you tell me about your encounter with Billy? What happened exactly? He wrote notes while I explained to him everything I remembered. It seemed he'd never run out of questions, I kept glancing at the wall clock hoping I could go home but the interview was dragging on. One last question Stacey, why you? Why do you think he picked you?
I was dumbfounded, not knowing how to answer him without loosing it I just stared. Finally after a couple minutes I said, What the hell kind of questoin is that? Do you think I know why I got raped? Why he chose ME? I've been asking that question since it happened! Why? Why me? Aren't YOU supposed to figure that out?
He looked from me to Carl, then back to me not knowing how to reply. Okay, that should be enough, we'll be contacting you in a couple days after we get Mr. Saner's side of the story. Officer Sanchiez said, getting up and shaking Carl's hand.
Thank you Officer, Carl smiled. Well, now that the rough parts over lets go home, shall we?
Tommy sat in the back with me on the ride home, with his arm around me and my head resting on his shoulder. Are you okay, he whispered in my ear.
I don't know Tommy...are you sure we can go through with this?
What you mean you NOT have your baby? Stacey, it's way to late to have an abortion or anything like that, plus I may not be it's real dad but if you would let me I really look forward to being a father figure to it. Speaking of which, when can you find out what sex it is?
Oh Tommy, I love you, I said as I kissed him on the cheek. The doctor said probably next month we can look.
He smiled, I love you too Stacey.
I love you both! Carl said, I looked at Tommy trying to not laugh at the look on his face.
When we got home Carl sat us down in the living room, a serious look on his face. Stacey, as you should know babies cost a lot of money, we're going to have to figure something out here.
I'll get a job to pay for it, I replied. I hadn't even thought of the cost of a baby.
I'll help too, Tommy added holding my hand.
One other thing, for a pregnant girl the couch can not be comfortable. I'll be back later, Carl said grabbing his car keys. You kids stay here, don't do anything crazy. He left, a couple hours later he came back with a truck following him. A couple men unloaded something out of the bed and carried it to the guest bedroom. Box after box went into the room, finally everyone left and Carl disapeared, about an hour later Carl came out and threw a bandana at me. Cover your eyes, he said smiling, he looked so excited I thought he was going to explode.
Okay...I said and wrapped the bandana around my eyes. Tommy helped me feel my way to the guest room where an eager Carl waited. I heard Tommy gasp and I ripped my bandana off. My mouth fell open, layed out in front of me were a crib yet to be put together, a baby dresser, and other things needed for a nursery. Carl...what is all this?
Well I figured the baby would need a place to stay...and if I can trust you kids you may sleep in Tommy's room.
Where am I going to sleep? Tommy asked panickly.
In your room, Carl replied. I'm sure you both understand the consequences of sex so I can trust you right?
Carl, you're my hero. I said, I can't believe you did all this!
Later, in Tommy's room ready to fall asleep Tommy poked my side.
Yeah?
I just wanted to make sure you were awake, he said.
I'm awake, I said groggily.
I love you Stacey.
I smiled in the dark, Forever?
Forever, he said, I could see the faint outline of his smile.
You promise?
Cross my heart and hope to die, he said.
I love you too Tommy I said and wrapped my arms around him. We held eachother until we fell asleep, and I thought nothing could be more perfect then that moment.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Chapter 12-Secrets
About 10 minutes later I was sitting in the principles office crying my eyes out, Tommy sitting next to me holding my hand.
What’s the meaning of this Mz. Plaisance? The principle said holding out the paper.
I looked at it again, reading the words “Pregnant slut’s locker. Whore.” It went on, people had signed it at the bottom.
I…I don’t know sir. I said choking back tears.
Mr. Robbins, Deena and Chri- Tommy tried to explain who taped it to my locker.
I DIDN’T ASK YOU! He roared. Why are these kids calling you this Mz. Plaisance?
Well…sir…
Billy Saner um raped her Mr. Robbins. He got her pregnant and told the school I guess.
I shot Tommy a hurt, disapointed look then looked back at Mr. Robbins.
Is this true? Mr. Robbins said wide eyed.
Um…yes sir…
When did this happen? Why didn’t you tell anyone?
About 4 or 5 months ago sir. I didn’t want this to happen. My dad kicked me out, I live with Tommy now, his dad doesn’t know.
How’d you pull that off?
Baggy clothes and fake allergies sir…
Well I’ll just call Tommy’s father right now.
No sir please don’t! He didn’t listen, 2 minutes later he was talking into the phone, and Tommy’s dad rushed to the school to pick us both up. I was suspended for the rest of the day, Tommy had an excuse. Deena and Christi would have a ‘strict talk about behavior’ he had said. When we got to Tommy’s we sat on the couch across from Tommy’s dad.
What’s going on you two?
Thankfully Mr. Robbins hadn’t said exactly what was going on just that he needed to get us right away. Well, um dad…we need to tell you something. Tommy said.
What is it? Spit it out boy!
I looked down, I’m pregnant Mr. Blirt…
What?? Tommy how could you let-
It’s not his baby Mr. Blirt…
What?!
This boy, Billy Saner, from school dad he raped her.
At that he went quiet. He just looked at us and looked at us, finally he talked. Well I guess we’d better get you to a doctor then.
I smiled then, he’d always been understanding, I’m sorry Mr. Blirt, I said.
It’s not your fault sweety, he said grabbing his car keys. And you know better, call me Carl, he said winking.
Tommy squeezed my hand as we walked to the car, maybe, just maybe things will be okay, I thought to myself.
What’s the meaning of this Mz. Plaisance? The principle said holding out the paper.
I looked at it again, reading the words “Pregnant slut’s locker. Whore.” It went on, people had signed it at the bottom.
I…I don’t know sir. I said choking back tears.
Mr. Robbins, Deena and Chri- Tommy tried to explain who taped it to my locker.
I DIDN’T ASK YOU! He roared. Why are these kids calling you this Mz. Plaisance?
Well…sir…
Billy Saner um raped her Mr. Robbins. He got her pregnant and told the school I guess.
I shot Tommy a hurt, disapointed look then looked back at Mr. Robbins.
Is this true? Mr. Robbins said wide eyed.
Um…yes sir…
When did this happen? Why didn’t you tell anyone?
About 4 or 5 months ago sir. I didn’t want this to happen. My dad kicked me out, I live with Tommy now, his dad doesn’t know.
How’d you pull that off?
Baggy clothes and fake allergies sir…
Well I’ll just call Tommy’s father right now.
No sir please don’t! He didn’t listen, 2 minutes later he was talking into the phone, and Tommy’s dad rushed to the school to pick us both up. I was suspended for the rest of the day, Tommy had an excuse. Deena and Christi would have a ‘strict talk about behavior’ he had said. When we got to Tommy’s we sat on the couch across from Tommy’s dad.
What’s going on you two?
Thankfully Mr. Robbins hadn’t said exactly what was going on just that he needed to get us right away. Well, um dad…we need to tell you something. Tommy said.
What is it? Spit it out boy!
I looked down, I’m pregnant Mr. Blirt…
What?? Tommy how could you let-
It’s not his baby Mr. Blirt…
What?!
This boy, Billy Saner, from school dad he raped her.
At that he went quiet. He just looked at us and looked at us, finally he talked. Well I guess we’d better get you to a doctor then.
I smiled then, he’d always been understanding, I’m sorry Mr. Blirt, I said.
It’s not your fault sweety, he said grabbing his car keys. And you know better, call me Carl, he said winking.
Tommy squeezed my hand as we walked to the car, maybe, just maybe things will be okay, I thought to myself.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Chapter 11-Story of a Girl
What the hell, was all Tommy could manage, and that's pretty much what I was thinking too.
Can he do that?! I asked, about to cry.
Stace...his voice trailed off when he saw the tears running down my face. Suddenly the door opened, and out flew my clothes and my dog. I couldn't take it anymore and I screamed as loud as I could, then suddenly like I was drained of all the energy I'd ever had I dropped to the ground, crying and holding Jake. I don't know how long I was like that but Tommy walked to the sidewalk to call his dad, a couple minutes later he started picking up my stuff and helped me up.
Come on, he said, you're staying with me.
Tommy I can't-
Shh yes you can and you are, come on. He smiled and brushed the tears out of my eyes. I grabbed for his hand and walked with Jake on the other side of me back to Tommy's. The next month was good, I slept on the couch and Jake stayed outside-I had to get a job so I could pay for him though Tommy's dad offered to pay for it, I felt bad enough just staying there. His dad didn't know anything about Billy or the results of that night-the only ones who did were Tommy, his brother, and me. I had started wearing baggyish clothes so I wouldn't be showing, and thankfully nobody noticed. It had been about two months since my dad kicked me out, so I was about 5 months along.His dad sometimes questioned why I was sick all the time, but Tommy finally convinced him that I was just extremely allergic to stuff in the air.
After school one day, I ran into Billy again. He looked down and chuckled when he saw who I was, Back for more? He asked, grinning.
Excuse me? I started to turn away but he grabbed my arm and spun me back around.
Come on, don't leave so soon, his breath smelled strongly of alcohol.
Leave me alone Billy!
Why should I?
Because you already pregnant what more do you want?
WHAT?
You heard me now leave. me. alone.
You're lying-I couldn't have! As if he needed to convince himself still he tried to touch my stomach, I flinched away.
Oh my go-I didn't let him finish I kicked him as hard as I possibly could in the knee and ran.
When I got back to Tommy's I hugged him and cried on the couch until I was fast asleep. The next morning when we went to school I had calmed down and was finally okay, today I was supposed to see the doctor and I'd get out of school early. Tommy and I were talking about him coming with me while we walked in the door, I was smiling from ear to ear until I got to my locker. When I turned to put my combination in I dropped my books, Tommy said something but I didn't hear him, I could only hear my heart pounding in my chest and felt the tears coming down my cheeks. I turned to run away from the horrible paper but ran straight into the two that taped it to my locker.
Can he do that?! I asked, about to cry.
Stace...his voice trailed off when he saw the tears running down my face. Suddenly the door opened, and out flew my clothes and my dog. I couldn't take it anymore and I screamed as loud as I could, then suddenly like I was drained of all the energy I'd ever had I dropped to the ground, crying and holding Jake. I don't know how long I was like that but Tommy walked to the sidewalk to call his dad, a couple minutes later he started picking up my stuff and helped me up.
Come on, he said, you're staying with me.
Tommy I can't-
Shh yes you can and you are, come on. He smiled and brushed the tears out of my eyes. I grabbed for his hand and walked with Jake on the other side of me back to Tommy's. The next month was good, I slept on the couch and Jake stayed outside-I had to get a job so I could pay for him though Tommy's dad offered to pay for it, I felt bad enough just staying there. His dad didn't know anything about Billy or the results of that night-the only ones who did were Tommy, his brother, and me. I had started wearing baggyish clothes so I wouldn't be showing, and thankfully nobody noticed. It had been about two months since my dad kicked me out, so I was about 5 months along.His dad sometimes questioned why I was sick all the time, but Tommy finally convinced him that I was just extremely allergic to stuff in the air.
After school one day, I ran into Billy again. He looked down and chuckled when he saw who I was, Back for more? He asked, grinning.
Excuse me? I started to turn away but he grabbed my arm and spun me back around.
Come on, don't leave so soon, his breath smelled strongly of alcohol.
Leave me alone Billy!
Why should I?
Because you already pregnant what more do you want?
WHAT?
You heard me now leave. me. alone.
You're lying-I couldn't have! As if he needed to convince himself still he tried to touch my stomach, I flinched away.
Oh my go-I didn't let him finish I kicked him as hard as I possibly could in the knee and ran.
When I got back to Tommy's I hugged him and cried on the couch until I was fast asleep. The next morning when we went to school I had calmed down and was finally okay, today I was supposed to see the doctor and I'd get out of school early. Tommy and I were talking about him coming with me while we walked in the door, I was smiling from ear to ear until I got to my locker. When I turned to put my combination in I dropped my books, Tommy said something but I didn't hear him, I could only hear my heart pounding in my chest and felt the tears coming down my cheeks. I turned to run away from the horrible paper but ran straight into the two that taped it to my locker.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Chapter 10-Runaway Love
He opened and closed his mouth, searching for words, still looking horrified. I bit my lip trying not to cry, after what seemed a lifetime of silence I finally just got up and ran. I didn't know where I was going but I didn't look back and I let my feet carry me far away from everything, Tommy's horrified expression, stupid Ben for calling Tommy, and Billy for doing this to me. When I finally stopped I found myself at the town park, I sat on the swing and cried. My phone rang several times that night, eventually I just turned it off and fell asleep under the slide. I woke up to the sound of rain around me, a stray dog was trying to take shelter under a table and lightning brightened the sky all around. I sat up, wishing this was all just a dream, sadly my wish didn't come true. I laid back down trying to go back to sleep, but it didn't work. I turned round to see Tommy staring at me, wide-eyed and worry painted all over his face.
Tommy...I'm sorry..Billy...
Billy? It was Billy?? His tone was harsh with anger.
It had to be...that night when I came home from your house...I stopped, not needing to say anymore.
Stace come here, he said wrapping his arms around me. It's not your fault, but we need to get you home before your dad really freaks out.
Fine...Tommy I'm so sorry I don't know what to do.
It'll be okay, he said kissing the top of my head.
WHERE WERE YOU?!?! My dad roared as soon as I walked in.
The park...I fell asleep.
YEAH RIGHT DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME! YOU WERE WITH HIM WEREN'T YOU? He screamed pointing at Tommy.
No sir, I found her at the park asleep under the slide. Tommy tried to explain.
SHUT UP!
Don't talk to him like that dad! I pleaded, I really wasn't in the mood for him to yell at anyone especially Tommy.
DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO! GO TO BED RIGHT NOW, DON'T EVEN THINK YOUR GOING TO SEE HIM FOR A MONTH!
NO! I yelled back, I'M SO SICK OF PUTTING UP WITH YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I ran out the door, grabbing Tommy's hand. We stayed at his house that night, went to school, and when I came home my key wouldn't work.
Thought you were smarter then me didn't you? My dad said answering the door. You want to run off with him go ahead, don't come back. He slammed the door in my face, I turned to Tommy, speechless.
Tommy...I'm sorry..Billy...
Billy? It was Billy?? His tone was harsh with anger.
It had to be...that night when I came home from your house...I stopped, not needing to say anymore.
Stace come here, he said wrapping his arms around me. It's not your fault, but we need to get you home before your dad really freaks out.
Fine...Tommy I'm so sorry I don't know what to do.
It'll be okay, he said kissing the top of my head.
WHERE WERE YOU?!?! My dad roared as soon as I walked in.
The park...I fell asleep.
YEAH RIGHT DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME! YOU WERE WITH HIM WEREN'T YOU? He screamed pointing at Tommy.
No sir, I found her at the park asleep under the slide. Tommy tried to explain.
SHUT UP!
Don't talk to him like that dad! I pleaded, I really wasn't in the mood for him to yell at anyone especially Tommy.
DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO! GO TO BED RIGHT NOW, DON'T EVEN THINK YOUR GOING TO SEE HIM FOR A MONTH!
NO! I yelled back, I'M SO SICK OF PUTTING UP WITH YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I ran out the door, grabbing Tommy's hand. We stayed at his house that night, went to school, and when I came home my key wouldn't work.
Thought you were smarter then me didn't you? My dad said answering the door. You want to run off with him go ahead, don't come back. He slammed the door in my face, I turned to Tommy, speechless.
Chapter Nine-Here Comes Goodbye
It had been about a month since we had said I love you for the first time, and now I knew what was so wrong, the test was positive but I didn't understand how. Right now I was sitting on my front porch, resting my head on the wall trying to think back, when I realized what happened one word came to my mind. Billy.
Oh my gosh, Billy...this was horrible, going to ruin my life, I'll have to run to Canada or something. Then something hit me, Tommy, what would Tommy say? What would he do? I looked down, all I could do was cry.
God please don't let me lose Tommy, this is a horrible horrible mistake.
I prayed and prayed not knowing what else to do, thankfully I was alone outside and it was getting dark. Though the "populars" still bugged me at school I had gone from a total nobody bug on students' windshields to a 3rd wheel at parties and games, and every once in a while Tommy's friend would say hi and walk off, on good days. Ben, one of Tommys best friends, walked by and saw me crying.
Whats wrong?
Nothing just..go away okay?
Okay...he said. As he walked off he grabbed his phone and dialed someones number, whos I don't know but I was about to find out.
About 5 minutes later Tommy was there and had his arm around me.
Stace whats wrong?!
Tommy I can't tell you...you'll hate me.
Stace just tell me please I won't be mad.
I sighed and looked at Tommy, Tommy...I'm pregnant. I had to turn away, the look on his face was to horrible for me to bear. One thing went through my mind, here comes goodbye.
Oh my gosh, Billy...this was horrible, going to ruin my life, I'll have to run to Canada or something. Then something hit me, Tommy, what would Tommy say? What would he do? I looked down, all I could do was cry.
God please don't let me lose Tommy, this is a horrible horrible mistake.
I prayed and prayed not knowing what else to do, thankfully I was alone outside and it was getting dark. Though the "populars" still bugged me at school I had gone from a total nobody bug on students' windshields to a 3rd wheel at parties and games, and every once in a while Tommy's friend would say hi and walk off, on good days. Ben, one of Tommys best friends, walked by and saw me crying.
Whats wrong?
Nothing just..go away okay?
Okay...he said. As he walked off he grabbed his phone and dialed someones number, whos I don't know but I was about to find out.
About 5 minutes later Tommy was there and had his arm around me.
Stace whats wrong?!
Tommy I can't tell you...you'll hate me.
Stace just tell me please I won't be mad.
I sighed and looked at Tommy, Tommy...I'm pregnant. I had to turn away, the look on his face was to horrible for me to bear. One thing went through my mind, here comes goodbye.
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