About 10 minutes later I was sitting in the principles office crying my eyes out, Tommy sitting next to me holding my hand.
What’s the meaning of this Mz. Plaisance? The principle said holding out the paper.
I looked at it again, reading the words “Pregnant slut’s locker. Whore.” It went on, people had signed it at the bottom.
I…I don’t know sir. I said choking back tears.
Mr. Robbins, Deena and Chri- Tommy tried to explain who taped it to my locker.
I DIDN’T ASK YOU! He roared. Why are these kids calling you this Mz. Plaisance?
Well…sir…
Billy Saner um raped her Mr. Robbins. He got her pregnant and told the school I guess.
I shot Tommy a hurt, disapointed look then looked back at Mr. Robbins.
Is this true? Mr. Robbins said wide eyed.
Um…yes sir…
When did this happen? Why didn’t you tell anyone?
About 4 or 5 months ago sir. I didn’t want this to happen. My dad kicked me out, I live with Tommy now, his dad doesn’t know.
How’d you pull that off?
Baggy clothes and fake allergies sir…
Well I’ll just call Tommy’s father right now.
No sir please don’t! He didn’t listen, 2 minutes later he was talking into the phone, and Tommy’s dad rushed to the school to pick us both up. I was suspended for the rest of the day, Tommy had an excuse. Deena and Christi would have a ‘strict talk about behavior’ he had said. When we got to Tommy’s we sat on the couch across from Tommy’s dad.
What’s going on you two?
Thankfully Mr. Robbins hadn’t said exactly what was going on just that he needed to get us right away. Well, um dad…we need to tell you something. Tommy said.
What is it? Spit it out boy!
I looked down, I’m pregnant Mr. Blirt…
What?? Tommy how could you let-
It’s not his baby Mr. Blirt…
What?!
This boy, Billy Saner, from school dad he raped her.
At that he went quiet. He just looked at us and looked at us, finally he talked. Well I guess we’d better get you to a doctor then.
I smiled then, he’d always been understanding, I’m sorry Mr. Blirt, I said.
It’s not your fault sweety, he said grabbing his car keys. And you know better, call me Carl, he said winking.
Tommy squeezed my hand as we walked to the car, maybe, just maybe things will be okay, I thought to myself.
Life as a Nobody
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Chapter 11-Story of a Girl
What the hell, was all Tommy could manage, and that's pretty much what I was thinking too.
Can he do that?! I asked, about to cry.
Stace...his voice trailed off when he saw the tears running down my face. Suddenly the door opened, and out flew my clothes and my dog. I couldn't take it anymore and I screamed as loud as I could, then suddenly like I was drained of all the energy I'd ever had I dropped to the ground, crying and holding Jake. I don't know how long I was like that but Tommy walked to the sidewalk to call his dad, a couple minutes later he started picking up my stuff and helped me up.
Come on, he said, you're staying with me.
Tommy I can't-
Shh yes you can and you are, come on. He smiled and brushed the tears out of my eyes. I grabbed for his hand and walked with Jake on the other side of me back to Tommy's. The next month was good, I slept on the couch and Jake stayed outside-I had to get a job so I could pay for him though Tommy's dad offered to pay for it, I felt bad enough just staying there. His dad didn't know anything about Billy or the results of that night-the only ones who did were Tommy, his brother, and me. I had started wearing baggyish clothes so I wouldn't be showing, and thankfully nobody noticed. It had been about two months since my dad kicked me out, so I was about 5 months along.His dad sometimes questioned why I was sick all the time, but Tommy finally convinced him that I was just extremely allergic to stuff in the air.
After school one day, I ran into Billy again. He looked down and chuckled when he saw who I was, Back for more? He asked, grinning.
Excuse me? I started to turn away but he grabbed my arm and spun me back around.
Come on, don't leave so soon, his breath smelled strongly of alcohol.
Leave me alone Billy!
Why should I?
Because you already pregnant what more do you want?
WHAT?
You heard me now leave. me. alone.
You're lying-I couldn't have! As if he needed to convince himself still he tried to touch my stomach, I flinched away.
Oh my go-I didn't let him finish I kicked him as hard as I possibly could in the knee and ran.
When I got back to Tommy's I hugged him and cried on the couch until I was fast asleep. The next morning when we went to school I had calmed down and was finally okay, today I was supposed to see the doctor and I'd get out of school early. Tommy and I were talking about him coming with me while we walked in the door, I was smiling from ear to ear until I got to my locker. When I turned to put my combination in I dropped my books, Tommy said something but I didn't hear him, I could only hear my heart pounding in my chest and felt the tears coming down my cheeks. I turned to run away from the horrible paper but ran straight into the two that taped it to my locker.
Can he do that?! I asked, about to cry.
Stace...his voice trailed off when he saw the tears running down my face. Suddenly the door opened, and out flew my clothes and my dog. I couldn't take it anymore and I screamed as loud as I could, then suddenly like I was drained of all the energy I'd ever had I dropped to the ground, crying and holding Jake. I don't know how long I was like that but Tommy walked to the sidewalk to call his dad, a couple minutes later he started picking up my stuff and helped me up.
Come on, he said, you're staying with me.
Tommy I can't-
Shh yes you can and you are, come on. He smiled and brushed the tears out of my eyes. I grabbed for his hand and walked with Jake on the other side of me back to Tommy's. The next month was good, I slept on the couch and Jake stayed outside-I had to get a job so I could pay for him though Tommy's dad offered to pay for it, I felt bad enough just staying there. His dad didn't know anything about Billy or the results of that night-the only ones who did were Tommy, his brother, and me. I had started wearing baggyish clothes so I wouldn't be showing, and thankfully nobody noticed. It had been about two months since my dad kicked me out, so I was about 5 months along.His dad sometimes questioned why I was sick all the time, but Tommy finally convinced him that I was just extremely allergic to stuff in the air.
After school one day, I ran into Billy again. He looked down and chuckled when he saw who I was, Back for more? He asked, grinning.
Excuse me? I started to turn away but he grabbed my arm and spun me back around.
Come on, don't leave so soon, his breath smelled strongly of alcohol.
Leave me alone Billy!
Why should I?
Because you already pregnant what more do you want?
WHAT?
You heard me now leave. me. alone.
You're lying-I couldn't have! As if he needed to convince himself still he tried to touch my stomach, I flinched away.
Oh my go-I didn't let him finish I kicked him as hard as I possibly could in the knee and ran.
When I got back to Tommy's I hugged him and cried on the couch until I was fast asleep. The next morning when we went to school I had calmed down and was finally okay, today I was supposed to see the doctor and I'd get out of school early. Tommy and I were talking about him coming with me while we walked in the door, I was smiling from ear to ear until I got to my locker. When I turned to put my combination in I dropped my books, Tommy said something but I didn't hear him, I could only hear my heart pounding in my chest and felt the tears coming down my cheeks. I turned to run away from the horrible paper but ran straight into the two that taped it to my locker.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Chapter 10-Runaway Love
He opened and closed his mouth, searching for words, still looking horrified. I bit my lip trying not to cry, after what seemed a lifetime of silence I finally just got up and ran. I didn't know where I was going but I didn't look back and I let my feet carry me far away from everything, Tommy's horrified expression, stupid Ben for calling Tommy, and Billy for doing this to me. When I finally stopped I found myself at the town park, I sat on the swing and cried. My phone rang several times that night, eventually I just turned it off and fell asleep under the slide. I woke up to the sound of rain around me, a stray dog was trying to take shelter under a table and lightning brightened the sky all around. I sat up, wishing this was all just a dream, sadly my wish didn't come true. I laid back down trying to go back to sleep, but it didn't work. I turned round to see Tommy staring at me, wide-eyed and worry painted all over his face.
Tommy...I'm sorry..Billy...
Billy? It was Billy?? His tone was harsh with anger.
It had to be...that night when I came home from your house...I stopped, not needing to say anymore.
Stace come here, he said wrapping his arms around me. It's not your fault, but we need to get you home before your dad really freaks out.
Fine...Tommy I'm so sorry I don't know what to do.
It'll be okay, he said kissing the top of my head.
WHERE WERE YOU?!?! My dad roared as soon as I walked in.
The park...I fell asleep.
YEAH RIGHT DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME! YOU WERE WITH HIM WEREN'T YOU? He screamed pointing at Tommy.
No sir, I found her at the park asleep under the slide. Tommy tried to explain.
SHUT UP!
Don't talk to him like that dad! I pleaded, I really wasn't in the mood for him to yell at anyone especially Tommy.
DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO! GO TO BED RIGHT NOW, DON'T EVEN THINK YOUR GOING TO SEE HIM FOR A MONTH!
NO! I yelled back, I'M SO SICK OF PUTTING UP WITH YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I ran out the door, grabbing Tommy's hand. We stayed at his house that night, went to school, and when I came home my key wouldn't work.
Thought you were smarter then me didn't you? My dad said answering the door. You want to run off with him go ahead, don't come back. He slammed the door in my face, I turned to Tommy, speechless.
Tommy...I'm sorry..Billy...
Billy? It was Billy?? His tone was harsh with anger.
It had to be...that night when I came home from your house...I stopped, not needing to say anymore.
Stace come here, he said wrapping his arms around me. It's not your fault, but we need to get you home before your dad really freaks out.
Fine...Tommy I'm so sorry I don't know what to do.
It'll be okay, he said kissing the top of my head.
WHERE WERE YOU?!?! My dad roared as soon as I walked in.
The park...I fell asleep.
YEAH RIGHT DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME! YOU WERE WITH HIM WEREN'T YOU? He screamed pointing at Tommy.
No sir, I found her at the park asleep under the slide. Tommy tried to explain.
SHUT UP!
Don't talk to him like that dad! I pleaded, I really wasn't in the mood for him to yell at anyone especially Tommy.
DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO! GO TO BED RIGHT NOW, DON'T EVEN THINK YOUR GOING TO SEE HIM FOR A MONTH!
NO! I yelled back, I'M SO SICK OF PUTTING UP WITH YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I ran out the door, grabbing Tommy's hand. We stayed at his house that night, went to school, and when I came home my key wouldn't work.
Thought you were smarter then me didn't you? My dad said answering the door. You want to run off with him go ahead, don't come back. He slammed the door in my face, I turned to Tommy, speechless.
Chapter Nine-Here Comes Goodbye
It had been about a month since we had said I love you for the first time, and now I knew what was so wrong, the test was positive but I didn't understand how. Right now I was sitting on my front porch, resting my head on the wall trying to think back, when I realized what happened one word came to my mind. Billy.
Oh my gosh, Billy...this was horrible, going to ruin my life, I'll have to run to Canada or something. Then something hit me, Tommy, what would Tommy say? What would he do? I looked down, all I could do was cry.
God please don't let me lose Tommy, this is a horrible horrible mistake.
I prayed and prayed not knowing what else to do, thankfully I was alone outside and it was getting dark. Though the "populars" still bugged me at school I had gone from a total nobody bug on students' windshields to a 3rd wheel at parties and games, and every once in a while Tommy's friend would say hi and walk off, on good days. Ben, one of Tommys best friends, walked by and saw me crying.
Whats wrong?
Nothing just..go away okay?
Okay...he said. As he walked off he grabbed his phone and dialed someones number, whos I don't know but I was about to find out.
About 5 minutes later Tommy was there and had his arm around me.
Stace whats wrong?!
Tommy I can't tell you...you'll hate me.
Stace just tell me please I won't be mad.
I sighed and looked at Tommy, Tommy...I'm pregnant. I had to turn away, the look on his face was to horrible for me to bear. One thing went through my mind, here comes goodbye.
Oh my gosh, Billy...this was horrible, going to ruin my life, I'll have to run to Canada or something. Then something hit me, Tommy, what would Tommy say? What would he do? I looked down, all I could do was cry.
God please don't let me lose Tommy, this is a horrible horrible mistake.
I prayed and prayed not knowing what else to do, thankfully I was alone outside and it was getting dark. Though the "populars" still bugged me at school I had gone from a total nobody bug on students' windshields to a 3rd wheel at parties and games, and every once in a while Tommy's friend would say hi and walk off, on good days. Ben, one of Tommys best friends, walked by and saw me crying.
Whats wrong?
Nothing just..go away okay?
Okay...he said. As he walked off he grabbed his phone and dialed someones number, whos I don't know but I was about to find out.
About 5 minutes later Tommy was there and had his arm around me.
Stace whats wrong?!
Tommy I can't tell you...you'll hate me.
Stace just tell me please I won't be mad.
I sighed and looked at Tommy, Tommy...I'm pregnant. I had to turn away, the look on his face was to horrible for me to bear. One thing went through my mind, here comes goodbye.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Chapter Eight-Just the Way You Are
Well this isn't right at all...I thought to myself. For some reason I was a week late and I didn't understand why, but it was scaring me. I haven't done anything...so there shouldn't be anything to worry about right? I don't know, but I was trying to not let it get to me.
RINGRING!! My phone screamed as I ran to get it.
Hello?
Hey, Stacey. I heard Tommy say into the phone. I smiled, he's just who I needed to talk to.
Hey, what's up?
Nothing, wanna hang out tonight?
Sure, I replied trying to not sound to eager. An hour later I was at The Burger Hut with Tommy, laughing and smiling the whole time. I wasn't thinking of anything except Tommy and how much I liked him and I started to wonder how long we'd last, hoping that it'd be forever.
Here, I got this for you, he said sliding a small box across the table.
What for? I asked curiously as I opened the box. My mouth dropped open when I saw the silver chain, hanging on the chain was two hearts hooked together. I looked up at Tommy, still speachless, he was smiling from ear to ear at my reaction.
Do you like it?
Where'd you find it? What's this for? Tommy this is perfect but...if I'd known you got me something I-
Shh Stace, it's just because your the greatest girl I've ever met. My mom gave it to me before my parents got a divorce and told me to give it to a special girl when I meet her, so I did.
I put the necklace on, still not knowing what to say, today was going great and nothing could ruin it-that I could think of at least. Out of nowhere my stomach felt like it flipped and I ran to the bathroom afraid I was going to throw up. When I came back out I apologized and told him my stomach was just hurting a little that was all, so we went back to his house and hung out with his older brother Alec, who's about 17.
The next day I woke up and ran straight to the bathroom again I didn't understand why I was so sick but I didn't think anything of it so I just ignored it. After my stomach settled down Tommy called and asked how his amazingly perfect girl was.
Not to great, stomach still hurts, I sighed.
Anything I can do?
Well I'd ask you to come over but, I looked at myself in the mirror, I'm a mess right now, just got up.
You'll look perfect just the way you are Stace.
To that I smiled, feeling the same old butterflies in my stomach.
Okay, I said finally, I'll be outside on the porch, see you then. I was about to hang up when I heard him, barely, he sounded quiet and nervous.
Stace?
Yeah Tommy?
I love you.
RINGRING!! My phone screamed as I ran to get it.
Hello?
Hey, Stacey. I heard Tommy say into the phone. I smiled, he's just who I needed to talk to.
Hey, what's up?
Nothing, wanna hang out tonight?
Sure, I replied trying to not sound to eager. An hour later I was at The Burger Hut with Tommy, laughing and smiling the whole time. I wasn't thinking of anything except Tommy and how much I liked him and I started to wonder how long we'd last, hoping that it'd be forever.
Here, I got this for you, he said sliding a small box across the table.
What for? I asked curiously as I opened the box. My mouth dropped open when I saw the silver chain, hanging on the chain was two hearts hooked together. I looked up at Tommy, still speachless, he was smiling from ear to ear at my reaction.
Do you like it?
Where'd you find it? What's this for? Tommy this is perfect but...if I'd known you got me something I-
Shh Stace, it's just because your the greatest girl I've ever met. My mom gave it to me before my parents got a divorce and told me to give it to a special girl when I meet her, so I did.
I put the necklace on, still not knowing what to say, today was going great and nothing could ruin it-that I could think of at least. Out of nowhere my stomach felt like it flipped and I ran to the bathroom afraid I was going to throw up. When I came back out I apologized and told him my stomach was just hurting a little that was all, so we went back to his house and hung out with his older brother Alec, who's about 17.
The next day I woke up and ran straight to the bathroom again I didn't understand why I was so sick but I didn't think anything of it so I just ignored it. After my stomach settled down Tommy called and asked how his amazingly perfect girl was.
Not to great, stomach still hurts, I sighed.
Anything I can do?
Well I'd ask you to come over but, I looked at myself in the mirror, I'm a mess right now, just got up.
You'll look perfect just the way you are Stace.
To that I smiled, feeling the same old butterflies in my stomach.
Okay, I said finally, I'll be outside on the porch, see you then. I was about to hang up when I heard him, barely, he sounded quiet and nervous.
Stace?
Yeah Tommy?
I love you.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Chapter Seven-Need You Now
God my head hurts, I mumbled to myself standing up. I looked around realizing I was on my back porch. How I got here I don't know, or why my clothes are all messed up. I turned around to go inside, greeted by a note.
Went to store, be back later.
Great so I have the house to myself, I said. After eating breakfast and taking medicine for my head, I sat down to collect my thoughts. I only remembered bits and pieces of what happened last night. Billy grabbing me and dragging me somewhere, something hitting my head, going to the library. After that everything was blank, only one thing I was sure of and that was my whole body ached.
RING RING, my cell phone sang.
Hello? I answered groggily.
Hey Stacey, what's wrong? You sound sick, are you okay? Tommy said worriedly into the phone.
Um, I don't know Tommy.
Want to come over?
Sure, let me get ready I just woke up. I sighed, my head was still pounding.
Okay well see you when you get here.
Wait...can you come get me?
Sure...why?
I'll explain later.
Okay, bye Stacey.
Maybe Tommy will make me feel better, he knows how to do that. I showered and got dressed, left a note for dad and left with Tommy. When we got to his house we went to his room and started watching tv.
Tommy...something happened last night.
What? He asked putting his arm around me.
I don't know, when I was on my way home last night I stopped at the library and it was getting dark so I was running home, and...
And? What happened?
I ran into this guy Billy, I explained to him what happened, at least what I remember. The next thing I know I'm on my porch and my whole body hurts.
Do you think you need a doctor? Was anybody with him?
No and I don't think so, but Tommy I'm really scared. I looked down trying not to cry. I'm not sure I even want to know what happened.
I'm going to kill him...
Tommy, I appreciate it but he's older and bigger. Let's just...forget it happened.
I can't do that Stace.
Please for me, I begged. I kissed his cheek and rest my head on his shoulder. I'm fine Tommy, really.
Fine, he sighed.
The next day at school, Christi and Deena gawked at Tommy and me as we walked down the hallway.
How the hell! I heard Christi whisper, I just looked at her and smiled.
After a couple weeks they gave up trying to break us up and everything went back to almost 'normal,' the only difference was that my stomach was hurting a lot.
Went to store, be back later.
Great so I have the house to myself, I said. After eating breakfast and taking medicine for my head, I sat down to collect my thoughts. I only remembered bits and pieces of what happened last night. Billy grabbing me and dragging me somewhere, something hitting my head, going to the library. After that everything was blank, only one thing I was sure of and that was my whole body ached.
RING RING, my cell phone sang.
Hello? I answered groggily.
Hey Stacey, what's wrong? You sound sick, are you okay? Tommy said worriedly into the phone.
Um, I don't know Tommy.
Want to come over?
Sure, let me get ready I just woke up. I sighed, my head was still pounding.
Okay well see you when you get here.
Wait...can you come get me?
Sure...why?
I'll explain later.
Okay, bye Stacey.
Maybe Tommy will make me feel better, he knows how to do that. I showered and got dressed, left a note for dad and left with Tommy. When we got to his house we went to his room and started watching tv.
Tommy...something happened last night.
What? He asked putting his arm around me.
I don't know, when I was on my way home last night I stopped at the library and it was getting dark so I was running home, and...
And? What happened?
I ran into this guy Billy, I explained to him what happened, at least what I remember. The next thing I know I'm on my porch and my whole body hurts.
Do you think you need a doctor? Was anybody with him?
No and I don't think so, but Tommy I'm really scared. I looked down trying not to cry. I'm not sure I even want to know what happened.
I'm going to kill him...
Tommy, I appreciate it but he's older and bigger. Let's just...forget it happened.
I can't do that Stace.
Please for me, I begged. I kissed his cheek and rest my head on his shoulder. I'm fine Tommy, really.
Fine, he sighed.
The next day at school, Christi and Deena gawked at Tommy and me as we walked down the hallway.
How the hell! I heard Christi whisper, I just looked at her and smiled.
After a couple weeks they gave up trying to break us up and everything went back to almost 'normal,' the only difference was that my stomach was hurting a lot.
Chapter Six-Keep Holdin' On
So Tommy and I hung out the next day too, I ate dinner at his house and watched a movie with him. Another perfect day, I thought to myself smiling. Even though it was kind of cold outside I decided to walk home today, it wasn't that far and I knew the way. I had plenty of time to get home though so I stopped at the library and got two books. It was getting dark so I went the shortest way I could to get to my house, running through yards and cutting through alleys. I stopped to rest for a second when all of a sudden I heard something behind me, I turned around but didn't see anything.
Hey little girl, isn't it a little late for you to be out? Somebody asked from nowhere.
Instead of replying I ran as fast as my legs would carry me, which of course I ran right into the voice. Whoever it was grabbed me and I looked up to see who's arms were holding me. I was shocked to see Billy Saner, a "popular" senior. Um, Billy...let me go! I yelled trying to shake the horror out of my voice.
Now why would I do that? I'm throwing a party and your on the guest list. he said, smiling widely at me.
I don't care!! I screamed trying to wiggle free.
Don't be like that little girl, he chuckled. Come on, and don't try to fight with me, he snarled pulling me to wherever he was going.
LET ME GO! I screamed as loud as I could. Then, all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain in the back of my head and everything went black.
Hey little girl, isn't it a little late for you to be out? Somebody asked from nowhere.
Instead of replying I ran as fast as my legs would carry me, which of course I ran right into the voice. Whoever it was grabbed me and I looked up to see who's arms were holding me. I was shocked to see Billy Saner, a "popular" senior. Um, Billy...let me go! I yelled trying to shake the horror out of my voice.
Now why would I do that? I'm throwing a party and your on the guest list. he said, smiling widely at me.
I don't care!! I screamed trying to wiggle free.
Don't be like that little girl, he chuckled. Come on, and don't try to fight with me, he snarled pulling me to wherever he was going.
LET ME GO! I screamed as loud as I could. Then, all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain in the back of my head and everything went black.
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