Life as a Nobody

Life as a Nobody

Monday, September 13, 2010

Chapter 11-Story of a Girl

What the hell, was all Tommy could manage, and that's pretty much what I was thinking too.

Can he do that?! I asked, about to cry.

Stace...his voice trailed off when he saw the tears running down my face. Suddenly the door opened, and out flew my clothes and my dog. I couldn't take it anymore and I screamed as loud as I could, then suddenly like I was drained of all the energy I'd ever had I dropped to the ground, crying and holding Jake. I don't know how long I was like that but Tommy walked to the sidewalk to call his dad, a couple minutes later he started picking up my stuff and helped me up.

Come on, he said, you're staying with me.

Tommy I can't-

Shh yes you can and you are, come on. He smiled and brushed the tears out of my eyes. I grabbed for his hand and walked with Jake on the other side of me back to Tommy's. The next month was good, I slept on the couch and Jake stayed outside-I had to get a job so I could pay for him though Tommy's dad offered to pay for it, I felt bad enough just staying there. His dad didn't know anything about Billy or the results of that night-the only ones who did were Tommy, his brother, and me. I had started wearing baggyish clothes so I wouldn't be showing, and thankfully nobody noticed. It had been about two months since my dad kicked me out, so I was about 5 months along.His dad sometimes questioned why I was sick all the time, but Tommy finally convinced him that I was just extremely allergic to stuff in the air.
After school one day, I ran into Billy again. He looked down and chuckled when he saw who I was, Back for more? He asked, grinning.
Excuse me? I started to turn away but he grabbed my arm and spun me back around.
Come on, don't leave so soon, his breath smelled strongly of alcohol.
Leave me alone Billy!
Why should I?
Because you already pregnant what more do you want?
You heard me now leave. me. alone.
You're lying-I couldn't have! As if he needed to convince himself still he tried to touch my stomach, I flinched away.
Oh my go-I didn't let him finish I kicked him as hard as I possibly could in the knee and ran.
When I got back to Tommy's I hugged him and cried on the couch until I was fast asleep. The next morning when we went to school I had calmed down and was finally okay, today I was supposed to see the doctor and I'd get out of school early. Tommy and I were talking about him coming with me while we walked in the door, I was smiling from ear to ear until I got to my locker. When I turned to put my combination in I dropped my books, Tommy said something but I didn't hear him, I could only hear my heart pounding in my chest and felt the tears coming down my cheeks. I turned to run away from the horrible paper but ran straight into the two that taped it to my locker.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Chapter 10-Runaway Love

He opened and closed his mouth, searching for words, still looking horrified. I bit my lip trying not to cry, after what seemed a lifetime of silence I finally just got up and ran. I didn't know where I was going but I didn't look back and I let my feet carry me far away from everything, Tommy's horrified expression, stupid Ben for calling Tommy, and Billy for doing this to me. When I finally stopped I found myself at the town park, I sat on the swing and cried. My phone rang several times that night, eventually I just turned it off and fell asleep under the slide. I woke up to the sound of rain around me, a stray dog was trying to take shelter under a table and lightning brightened the sky all around. I sat up, wishing this was all just a dream, sadly my wish didn't come true. I laid back down trying to go back to sleep, but it didn't work. I turned round to see Tommy staring at me, wide-eyed and worry painted all over his face.
Tommy...I'm sorry..Billy...
Billy? It was Billy?? His tone was harsh with anger.
It had to be...that night when I came home from your house...I stopped, not needing to say anymore.
Stace come here, he said wrapping his arms around me. It's not your fault, but we need to get you home before your dad really freaks out.
Fine...Tommy I'm so sorry I don't know what to do.
It'll be okay, he said kissing the top of my head.

WHERE WERE YOU?!?! My dad roared as soon as I walked in.
The park...I fell asleep.
No sir, I found her at the park asleep under the slide. Tommy tried to explain.
Don't talk to him like that dad! I pleaded, I really wasn't in the mood for him to yell at anyone especially Tommy.
NO! I yelled back, I'M SO SICK OF PUTTING UP WITH YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I ran out the door, grabbing Tommy's hand. We stayed at his house that night, went to school, and when I came home my key wouldn't work.

Thought you were smarter then me didn't you? My dad said answering the door. You want to run off with him go ahead, don't come back. He slammed the door in my face, I turned to Tommy, speechless.

Chapter Nine-Here Comes Goodbye

It had been about a month since we had said I love you for the first time, and now I knew what was so wrong, the test was positive but I didn't understand how. Right now I was sitting on my front porch, resting my head on the wall trying to think back, when I realized what happened one word came to my mind. Billy.
Oh my gosh, Billy...this was horrible, going to ruin my life, I'll have to run to Canada or something. Then something hit me, Tommy, what would Tommy say? What would he do? I looked down, all I could do was cry.
God please don't let me lose Tommy, this is a horrible horrible mistake.

I prayed and prayed not knowing what else to do, thankfully I was alone outside and it was getting dark. Though the "populars" still bugged me at school I had gone from a total nobody bug on students' windshields to a 3rd wheel at parties and games, and every once in a while Tommy's friend would say hi and walk off, on good days. Ben, one of Tommys best friends, walked by and saw me crying.
Whats wrong?
Nothing just..go away okay?
Okay...he said. As he walked off he grabbed his phone and dialed someones number, whos I don't know but I was about to find out.
About 5 minutes later Tommy was there and had his arm around me.
Stace whats wrong?!
Tommy I can't tell'll hate me.

Stace just tell me please I won't be mad.
I sighed and looked at Tommy, Tommy...I'm pregnant. I had to turn away, the look on his face was to horrible for me to bear. One thing went through my mind, here comes goodbye.