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sorry the chapters are gonna be weird and out of order cuz instead of writing chapter 14 right now i'm going thru and editing the old crappy chapters, just watch wat order u read them in :P

Chapter 13-Cross My Heart

About 5 months, the doctor told Carl when we came back from my checkup. I'd say somewhere around May 21st the baby will be ready to come out.

I hadn't taken my eyes off Tommy since I came out from the back rooms, he looked excited but yet scared. It was then I noticed the policeman standing beside Carl, my eyes went wide.

May I talk to you for a minute Miss...Plaisance? He asked looking down at a notepad.

Um...Tommy, who's this?

I'm Officer Sanchiez, I'd like to question you about...Billy if you don't mind. He replied glancing at his notepad again.

Okay...I said, shaking as I sat down at a nearby chair, hoping that his interview wouldn't take long.

So can you tell me about your encounter with Billy? What happened exactly? He wrote notes while I explained to him everything I remembered. It seemed he'd never run out of questions, I kept glancing at the wall clock hoping I could go home but the interview was dragging on. One last question Stacey, why you? Why do you think he picked you?

I was dumbfounded, not knowing how to answer him without loosing it I just stared. Finally after a couple minutes I said, What the hell kind of questoin is that? Do you think I know why I got raped? Why he chose ME? I've been asking that question since it happened! Why? Why me? Aren't YOU supposed to figure that out?

He looked from me to Carl, then back to me not knowing how to reply. Okay, that should be enough, we'll be contacting you in a couple days after we get Mr. Saner's side of the story. Officer Sanchiez said, getting up and shaking Carl's hand.

Thank you Officer, Carl smiled. Well, now that the rough parts over lets go home, shall we?
Tommy sat in the back with me on the ride home, with his arm around me and my head resting on his shoulder. Are you okay, he whispered in my ear.
I don't know Tommy...are you sure we can go through with this?
What you mean you NOT have your baby? Stacey, it's way to late to have an abortion or anything like that, plus I may not be it's real dad but if you would let me I really look forward to being a father figure to it. Speaking of which, when can you find out what sex it is?
Oh Tommy, I love you, I said as I kissed him on the cheek. The doctor said probably next month we can look.
He smiled, I love you too Stacey.
I love you both! Carl said, I looked at Tommy trying to not laugh at the look on his face.
When we got home Carl sat us down in the living room, a serious look on his face. Stacey, as you should know babies cost a lot of money, we're going to have to figure something out here.
I'll get a job to pay for it, I replied. I hadn't even thought of the cost of a baby.
I'll help too, Tommy added holding my hand.
One other thing, for a pregnant girl the couch can not be comfortable. I'll be back later, Carl said grabbing his car keys. You kids stay here, don't do anything crazy. He left, a couple hours later he came back with a truck following him. A couple men unloaded something out of the bed and carried it to the guest bedroom. Box after box went into the room, finally everyone left and Carl disapeared, about an hour later Carl came out and threw a bandana at me. Cover your eyes, he said smiling, he looked so excited I thought he was going to explode.
Okay...I said and wrapped the bandana around my eyes. Tommy helped me feel my way to the guest room where an eager Carl waited. I heard Tommy gasp and I ripped my bandana off. My mouth fell open, layed out in front of me were a crib yet to be put together, a baby dresser, and other things needed for a nursery. Carl...what is all this?
Well I figured the baby would need a place to stay...and if I can trust you kids you may sleep in Tommy's room.
Where am I going to sleep? Tommy asked panickly.
In your room, Carl replied. I'm sure you both understand the consequences of sex so I can trust you right?
Carl, you're my hero. I said, I can't believe you did all this!
Later, in Tommy's room ready to fall asleep Tommy poked my side.
Yeah?
I just wanted to make sure you were awake, he said.
I'm awake, I said groggily.
I love you Stacey.
I smiled in the dark, Forever?
Forever, he said, I could see the faint outline of his smile.
You promise?
Cross my heart and hope to die, he said.
I love you too Tommy I said and wrapped my arms around him. We held eachother until we fell asleep, and I thought nothing could be more perfect then that moment.

Chapter 12-Secrets

About 10 minutes later I was sitting in the principles office crying my eyes out, Tommy sitting next to me holding my hand.
What’s the meaning of this Mz. Plaisance? The principle said holding out the paper.
I looked at it again, reading the words “Pregnant slut’s locker. Whore.” It went on, people had signed it at the bottom.
I…I don’t know sir. I said choking back tears.
Mr. Robbins, Deena and Chri- Tommy tried to explain who taped it to my locker.
I DIDN’T ASK YOU! He roared. Why are these kids calling you this Mz. Plaisance?
Well…sir…
Billy Saner um raped her Mr. Robbins. He got her pregnant and told the school I guess.
I shot Tommy a hurt, disapointed look then looked back at Mr. Robbins.
Is this true? Mr. Robbins said wide eyed.
Um…yes sir…
When did this happen? Why didn’t you tell anyone?
About 4 or 5 months ago sir. I didn’t want this to happen. My dad kicked me out, I live with Tommy now, his dad doesn’t know.
How’d you pull that off?
Baggy clothes and fake allergies sir…
Well I’ll just call Tommy’s father right now.
No sir please don’t! He didn’t listen, 2 minutes later he was talking into the phone, and Tommy’s dad rushed to the school to pick us both up. I was suspended for the rest of the day, Tommy had an excuse. Deena and Christi would have a ‘strict talk about behavior’ he had said. When we got to Tommy’s we sat on the couch across from Tommy’s dad.
What’s going on you two?
Thankfully Mr. Robbins hadn’t said exactly what was going on just that he needed to get us right away. Well, um dad…we need to tell you something. Tommy said.
What is it? Spit it out boy!
I looked down, I’m pregnant Mr. Blirt…
What?? Tommy how could you let-
It’s not his baby Mr. Blirt…
What?!
This boy, Billy Saner, from school dad he raped her.
At that he went quiet. He just looked at us and looked at us, finally he talked. Well I guess we’d better get you to a doctor then.
I smiled then, he’d always been understanding, I’m sorry Mr. Blirt, I said.
It’s not your fault sweety, he said grabbing his car keys. And you know better, call me Carl, he said winking.
Tommy squeezed my hand as we walked to the car, maybe, just maybe things will be okay, I thought to myself.

Chapter 11-Story of a Girl

What the hell, was all Tommy could manage, and that's pretty much what I was thinking too.

Can he do that?! I asked, about to cry.

Stace...his voice trailed off when he saw the tears running down my face. Suddenly the door opened, and out flew my clothes and my dog. I couldn't take it anymore and I screamed as loud as I could, then suddenly like I was drained of all the energy I'd ever had I dropped to the ground, crying and holding Jake. I don't know how long I was like that but Tommy walked to the sidewalk to call his dad, a couple minutes later he started picking up my stuff and helped me up.

Come on, he said, you're staying with me.

Tommy I can't-

Shh yes you can and you are, come on. He smiled and brushed the tears out of my eyes. I grabbed for his hand and walked with Jake on the other side of me back to Tommy's. The next month was good, I slept on the couch and Jake stayed outside-I had to get a job so I could pay for him though Tommy's dad offered to pay for it, I felt bad enough just staying there. His dad didn't know anything about Billy or the results of that night-the only ones who did were Tommy, his brother, and me. I had started wearing baggyish clothes so I wouldn't be showing, and thankfully nobody noticed. It had been about two months since my dad kicked me out, so I was about 5 months along.His dad sometimes questioned why I was sick all the time, but Tommy finally convinced him that I was just extremely allergic to stuff in the air.
After school one day, I ran into Billy again. He looked down and chuckled when he saw who I was, Back for more? He asked, grinning.
Excuse me? I started to turn away but he grabbed my arm and spun me back around.
Come on, don't leave so soon, his breath smelled strongly of alcohol.
Leave me alone Billy!
Why should I?
Because you already pregnant what more do you want?
WHAT?
You heard me now leave. me. alone.
You're lying-I couldn't have! As if he needed to convince himself still he tried to touch my stomach, I flinched away.
Oh my go-I didn't let him finish I kicked him as hard as I possibly could in the knee and ran.
When I got back to Tommy's I hugged him and cried on the couch until I was fast asleep. The next morning when we went to school I had calmed down and was finally okay, today I was supposed to see the doctor and I'd get out of school early. Tommy and I were talking about him coming with me while we walked in the door, I was smiling from ear to ear until I got to my locker. When I turned to put my combination in I dropped my books, Tommy said something but I didn't hear him, I could only hear my heart pounding in my chest and felt the tears coming down my cheeks. I turned to run away from the horrible paper but ran straight into the two that taped it to my locker.

Chapter 10-Runaway Love

He opened and closed his mouth, searching for words, still looking horrified. I bit my lip trying not to cry, after what seemed a lifetime of silence I finally just got up and ran. I didn't know where I was going but I didn't look back and I let my feet carry me far away from everything, Tommy's horrified expression, stupid Ben for calling Tommy, and Billy for doing this to me. When I finally stopped I found myself at the town park, I sat on the swing and cried. My phone rang several times that night, eventually I just turned it off and fell asleep under the slide. I woke up to the sound of rain around me, a stray dog was trying to take shelter under a table and lightning brightened the sky all around. I sat up, wishing this was all just a dream, sadly my wish didn't come true. I laid back down trying to go back to sleep, but it didn't work. I turned round to see Tommy staring at me, wide-eyed and worry painted all over his face.
Tommy...I'm sorry..Billy...
Billy? It was Billy?? His tone was harsh with anger.
It had to be...that night when I came home from your house...I stopped, not needing to say anymore.
Stace come here, he said wrapping his arms around me. It's not your fault, but we need to get you home before your dad really freaks out.
Fine...Tommy I'm so sorry I don't know what to do.
It'll be okay, he said kissing the top of my head.

WHERE WERE YOU?!?! My dad roared as soon as I walked in.
The park...I fell asleep.
YEAH RIGHT DON'T YOU DARE LIE TO ME! YOU WERE WITH HIM WEREN'T YOU? He screamed pointing at Tommy.
No sir, I found her at the park asleep under the slide. Tommy tried to explain.
SHUT UP!
Don't talk to him like that dad! I pleaded, I really wasn't in the mood for him to yell at anyone especially Tommy.
DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO! GO TO BED RIGHT NOW, DON'T EVEN THINK YOUR GOING TO SEE HIM FOR A MONTH!
NO! I yelled back, I'M SO SICK OF PUTTING UP WITH YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I ran out the door, grabbing Tommy's hand. We stayed at his house that night, went to school, and when I came home my key wouldn't work.
Thought you were smarter then me didn't you? My dad said answering the door. You want to run off with him go ahead, don't come back. He slammed the door in my face, I turned to Tommy, speechless.

Chapter Nine-Here Comes Goodbye

It had been about a month since we had said I love you for the first time, and now I knew what was so wrong, the test was positive but I didn't understand how. Right now I was sitting on my front porch, resting my head on the wall trying to think back, when I realized what happened one word came to my mind. Billy.
Oh my gosh, Billy...this was horrible, going to ruin my life, I'll have to run to Canada or something. Then something hit me, Tommy, what would Tommy say? What would he do? I looked down, all I could do was cry.
God please don't let me lose Tommy, this is a horrible horrible mistake.
I prayed and prayed not knowing what else to do, thankfully I was alone outside and it was getting dark. Though the "populars" still bugged me at school I had gone from a total nobody bug on students' windshields to a 3rd wheel at parties and games, and every once in a while Tommy's friend would say hi and walk off, on good days. Ben, one of Tommys best friends, walked by and saw me crying.
Whats wrong?
Nothing just..go away okay?
Okay...he said. As he walked off he grabbed his phone and dialed someones number, whos I don't know but I was about to find out.
About 5 minutes later Tommy was there and had his arm around me.
Stace whats wrong?!
Tommy I can't tell you...you'll hate me.
Stace just tell me please I won't be mad.
I sighed and looked at Tommy, Tommy...I'm pregnant. I had to turn away, the look on his face was to horrible for me to bear. One thing went through my mind, here comes goodbye.

Chapter Eight-Just the Way You Are

Well this isn't right at all...I thought to myself. For some reason I was a week late and I didn't understand why, but it was scaring me. I haven't done anything...so there shouldn't be anything to worry about right? I don't know, but I was trying to not let it get to me.
RINGRING!! My phone screamed as I ran to get it.
Hello?

Hey, Stacey. I heard Tommy say into the phone. I smiled, he's just who I needed to talk to.

Hey, what's up?
Nothing, wanna hang out tonight?

Sure, I replied trying to not sound to eager. An hour later I was at The Burger Hut with Tommy, laughing and smiling the whole time. I wasn't thinking of anything except Tommy and how much I liked him and I started to wonder how long we'd last, hoping that it'd be forever.

Here, I got this for you, he said sliding a small box across the table.

What for? I asked curiously as I opened the box. My mouth dropped open when I saw the silver chain, hanging on the chain was two hearts hooked together. I looked up at Tommy, still speachless, he was smiling from ear to ear at my reaction.

Do you like it?

Where'd you find it? What's this for? Tommy this is perfect but...if I'd known you got me something I-

Shh Stace, it's just because your the greatest girl I've ever met. My mom gave it to me before my parents got a divorce and told me to give it to a special girl when I meet her, so I did.

I put the necklace on, still not knowing what to say, today was going great and nothing could ruin it-that I could think of at least. Out of nowhere my stomach felt like it flipped and I ran to the bathroom afraid I was going to throw up. When I came back out I apologized and told him my stomach was just hurting a little that was all, so we went back to his house and hung out with his older brother Alec, who's about 17.
The next day I woke up and ran straight to the bathroom again I didn't understand why I was so sick but I didn't think anything of it so I just ignored it. After my stomach settled down Tommy called and asked how his amazingly perfect girl was.

Not to great, stomach still hurts, I sighed.

Anything I can do?

Well I'd ask you to come over but, I looked at myself in the mirror, I'm a mess right now, just got up.

You'll look perfect just the way you are Stace.
To that I smiled, feeling the same old butterflies in my stomach.
Okay, I said finally, I'll be outside on the porch, see you then. I was about to hang up when I heard him, barely, he sounded quiet and nervous.

Stace?

Yeah Tommy?

I love you.

Chapter Seven-Need You Now

God my head hurts, I mumbled to myself standing up. I looked around realizing I was on my back porch. How I got here I don't know, or why my clothes are all messed up. I turned around to go inside, greeted by a note.
Went to store, be back later.
Great so I have the house to myself, I said. After eating breakfast and taking medicine for my head, I sat down to collect my thoughts. I only remembered bits and pieces of what happened last night. Billy grabbing me and dragging me somewhere, something hitting my head, going to the library. After that everything was blank, only one thing I was sure of and that was my whole body ached.
RING RING, my cell phone sang.
Hello? I answered groggily.
Hey Stacey, what's wrong? You sound sick, are you okay? Tommy said worriedly into the phone.
Um, I don't know Tommy.
Want to come over?
Sure, let me get ready I just woke up. I sighed, my head was still pounding.
Okay well see you when you get here.
Wait...can you come get me?
Sure...why?
I'll explain later.
Okay, bye Stacey.
Maybe Tommy will make me feel better, he knows how to do that. I showered and got dressed, left a note for dad and left with Tommy. When we got to his house we went to his room and started watching tv.
Tommy...something happened last night.
What? He asked putting his arm around me.
I don't know, when I was on my way home last night I stopped at the library and it was getting dark so I was running home, and...
And? What happened?
I ran into this guy Billy, I explained to him what happened, at least what I remember. The next thing I know I'm on my porch and my whole body hurts.
Do you think you need a doctor? Was anybody with him?
No and I don't think so, but Tommy I'm really scared. I looked down trying not to cry. I'm not sure I even want to know what happened.
I'm going to kill him...
Tommy, I appreciate it but he's older and bigger. Let's just...forget it happened.
I can't do that Stace.
Please for me, I begged. I kissed his cheek and rest my head on his shoulder. I'm fine Tommy, really.
Fine, he sighed.
The next day at school, Christi and Deena gawked at Tommy and me as we walked down the hallway.
How the hell! I heard Christi whisper, I just looked at her and smiled.
After a couple weeks they gave up trying to break us up and everything went back to almost 'normal,' the only difference was that my stomach was hurting a lot.

Chapter Six-Keep Holdin' On

So Tommy and I hung out the next day too, I ate dinner at his house and watched a movie with him. Another perfect day, I thought to myself smiling. Even though it was kind of cold outside I decided to walk home today, it wasn't that far and I knew the way. I had plenty of time to get home though so I stopped at the library and got two books. It was getting dark so I went the shortest way I could to get to my house, running through yards and cutting through alleys. I stopped to rest for a second when all of a sudden I heard something behind me, I turned around but didn't see anything.
Hey little girl, isn't it a little late for you to be out? Somebody asked from nowhere.
Instead of replying I ran as fast as my legs would carry me, which of course I ran right into the voice. Whoever it was grabbed me and I looked up to see who's arms were holding me. I was shocked to see Billy Saner, a "popular" senior. Um, Billy...let me go! I yelled trying to shake the horror out of my voice.
Now why would I do that? I'm throwing a party and your on the guest list. he said, smiling widely at me.
I don't care!! I screamed trying to wiggle free.
Don't be like that little girl, he chuckled. Come on, and don't try to fight with me, he snarled pulling me to wherever he was going.
LET ME GO! I screamed as loud as I could. Then, all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain in the back of my head and everything went black.

Chapter Five-La La La

I looked at Tommy and smiled, I was having a great time with him. We watched the new Nightmare on Elm Street then went to the park, standing next to him felt so right even if I just met him the other day.
"What time do you need to be home?" he asked, returning the smile.
"Um..I'm not sure," I said stopping to sit down on a bench.
"Okay well then, what would you like to do before I take you home?" he replied sitting down next to me.
"Umm well we could...walk some more or go play basketball over there," I said pointing towards the basketball goals.
"You like basketball? Then let's go," he smiled again grabbing my hand and leading me towards the goals.
The score ended up being Tommy-10 Me-12, "Better luck next time, Tommy."
"I let you win," he said laughing
"Sure you did, either way I won."
"Yeah," he said moving closer to me.
I looked at him, not being able to stop grinning, and all of a sudden we kissed. It wasn't a big romantic one like in movies, but it wasn't a really fast peck either. Whatever it was it was perfect and amazing.
"Congratulations," he said looking in my eyes.
"I- To- Oh my gosh!" I said surprised as ever.
He laughed, "Sorry."
"Don't be, but I do think it's time for me to go home. Don't think it's because of the kiss-I mean that was...I don't know but," I was so excited my mind was going 200 miles an hour, my words kept coming out all wrong.
"Come on," he said putting his arm around me. "Was that your first kiss?"
"Um no, was it yours?"
"Well...no," he sounded ashamed.
"Oh. Well uh, I had a great time Tommy." I didn't know what to say anymore he made my heart pound and my head spin, I almost felt dizzy just looking at him.
"I did too, do you want to come over tomorrow?"
"I'll have to ask my dad but sure," I said even though I meant to say no. Today was perfect and nothing I could think of would change it.

Chapter Four-Teenage Dream

I closed my eyes, laying on my bed listening to music was the only thing to make me smile now, even if my bed wasn't comfortable.
Maybe I like it! The way you move on the floor, Maybe I like it! C’mon and gimme some more, I sang to myself. Oh yes I like it! I-I I like it. I stood up and started dancing singing loudly into a hairbrush, until something hit my window. I turned around to see Tommy outside watching me. TOMMY! I hissed, opening my window. What are you doing?!
Me? You're the one rockin' out. Anyway I wanted to talk, you didn't read the rest of our note. Look I like you, okay? You're the only one to even look at me without making a twisted face.
Well, most of us don't welcome newbies
But you did, he said smiling. Thank-
Who are you talking to in there?! My dad yelled through the door furiously.
Nobody! I said, Tommy. You have to go, now! I whispered and shut my window.
The next day was Saturday so I didn't have much to do. I swept the floor, played with Jake, and watched TV. It was pretty boring until my phone rang, but i didn't recognize the number. Who are you and why are you calling me? I said into the phone.
Hey Stacey, I'm sorry about last night I was wondering if maybe you wanted to hang out today, like go see a movie or something?
Umm...okay what movie? I couldn't help but blush, I wasn't sure why Tommy kept talking to me but I liked it.
The new Freddy movie is out, unless you don't like scary movies, then there's some comedy's and romances.
I didn't know what to answer, scary movies were obviously make-out movies but I wasn't in the mood for romance and I didn't want to have a laughing fit in front of him. Scary movies are fine, I finally answered, feeling happy after I did.
Great! I'll pick you up at 7?
Okay, see you then Tommy, I said hanging up. I couldn't help but smiling and feeling butterfly's in my stomach. Everything was going great, I was getting an outfit together and I had the perfect shoes and makeup, until I realized I was going on a date with one of the hottest guys in school. What would happen if Christi or Deena found out?! They would find some way to tease me about it. Oh well, they say what they say, bottom line is they can't have what I've got. I said to myself, hearing Tommy at the door. I grabbed my purse, told my dad I was leaving, and headed out the door.

Chapter Three-Somebody to Love

Well the rest of the day at school was pretty much the same as usual, whispers as I walk down the hall, nobody to sit with at lunch, nothing new. The only thing different was the principal decided to call my dad and tell him I skipped second period, which in my defense isn't what happened I simply ran out of the classroom and didn't come back. My dad, of course, didn't care which happened the point was I wasn't in class.
YOU SKIPPED 2nd PERIOD?
No Christi and Deen-
STACEY WHAT'S GOTTEN INTO YOU? YOU KNOW BETTER!!!
I'm sorry dad..
I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!! GO TO YOUR ROOM!
So I ran to my room, grabbed my 4 year old mp3 player, my paperback copy of November Blues, and plopped down on my bed. I turned the mp3 player on my favorite song, Ridin' Solo by Jason Derulo and opened my book. The next thing I remembered was the BLEEP BLEEP BLEEP of my annoying little clock. I jumped up, turned it off and got ready for school. At breakfast Dad hopped on the bus and prayed today would be better.Why am I not surprised? There's a note on my locker, BOYFRIEND STEALER-WANNABE!
I sighed and took it down, I opened my locker and jumped back fast to make sure nothing fell on me today. Thankfully nothing did, I grabbed my books, my pencil, and binder, and went to first period. When I opened my binder there was a note, folded neatly inside the first pocket.
What was that yesterday? I thought you were different Stacey!
I looked over at Tommy and sighed, Tommy I told you I'm not friends with them anymore..I don't talk to them I don't listen to them I try to not see them why can't you believe me? You really think I'd do that?
Well everyone picks on the new kid..and I don't know if you would I just moved here yesterday.
Well if you're going to believe them over me that's your own problem I didn't ask for anymore drama in my life.
I don't know what he wrote back because when he handed me the note I threw it away. Done with one person of drama, I told myself.

Chapter Two-Outside Looking In

I know what you're thinking, what about your dad? Well he usually was on his computer playing his WoW (World of Warcraft.) When he wasn't doing that he was with his girlfriend, or yelling at me. My dad and I didn't really get along at all, we tried to avoid each other as much as possible. If we don't something like this will happen:STACEY!
What?
Why did you leave your clothes on the floor?!?!?!? I TOLD YOU TO PICK THEM UP!
Bla. Bla. Bla. Pretty much every time I would get grounded. But enough about the other day and my dad, back to now.So today I was on my way to first period when I walked past a flyer that said: 8TH GRADE DANCE! BOYS CHOICE! MUSIC! PIZZA! SODA! 5:30-8:30 FRIDAY APRIL 14TH Wow, next Friday. Too bad nobody will ask me, I thought to myself. I turned around and bumped into somebody, both of us dropping our books. Oh sorry, I mumbled picking up my books.
It's okay, my fault I didn't see you, he replied collecting his things and helping me up.
I'm not surprised, I said sighing.
Whatcha mean? You new here like me or just ignored a lot?
Well I used to be friends with them, I said pointed to a crowd around Christi and Deena. But now just ignored. So you said you're new here, what class you heading to? I asked walking to the water fountain.
Science, worst class ever thought of if you ask me, he said frowning.
Oh, so am I, Ms. Redders is an okay teacher though. She doesn't give homework, no lectures or anything just lots of work in class, I explained walking towards the classroom.
Sounds like an easy A to me, he grinned. Hey, I didn't get your name, what is it? Mines Tommy,
Stacey, nice to meet you Tommy, I responded, returning the smile. We got to Ms. Redders room, I sat down in my seat while he went to find out where he was going to be assigned. Somehow, he got assigned to sit by me, while he walked over still grinning I started getting out my notes for science b
ut a folded up paper landed on my binder. I looked up but nobody was standing at my table. Hah, our luck right? So anyway back to our conversation, what's your next class?
I looked at Tommy with a puzzled expression, he nodded so I wrote back: Umm social studies, you? So where you from and why you move here in this nobody-town? You know if Ms. Redders catches us writing a note we'll get in big trouble.
Texas, my parents got a divorce and my dad decided to move here. Don't worry about her I'll take the blame if she does.
Your parents too? That stinks, mine did when I was little. I lived with my dad too, it kinda stinks, all he does is play WoW all day.
Well that does sound like it stinks..hey about the dance next Friday do you wanna go..with me?
I know what you're thinking again; wow I knew this would be a sappy story but she got the guy so fast? That's supposed to be at the end! Well I have some bad news for you just hold on don't put down this sappy story yet, but trust me I was thinking something like that too.BRLINNNGG the bell screamed, I grabbed the note, and the rest of my things and headed to second period. When I set my stuff down and pulled out the note and a pencil, I was just about to write when somebody walked up behind me.
So who's boyfriend is that? I turned to see Christi and Deena behind me reading the note.
Um, nobody's that I know of? What's it to you anyway! I replied angrily.
Deena snatched the note up and gave it to Christi. Look! Stacey's trying to steal another boyfriend! Christi said laughing. She started reading parts of the note, the only ones to make me look bad, and don't be surprised, she started making up stuff too. Naturally everyone thought her little show was hilarious. She threw the note back on my desk and started to turn around. Pathetic, she said nastily, walking off with Deena.
I was so embarrassed, but to make it worse I turned back to my desk to see Tommy standing there staring at me in shock.
You told them all of those lies? he asked with horror on his face. Why? You wanted to make my first day horrible? No, Tommy! I- I started to explain but he just wouldn't listen. I don't want to hear it, she was right you are pathetic, he said with disgust in his voice. I grabbed my books and ran out of the classroom, into the bathroom with tears running down my face. Why can't I have a normal life?

Chapter One-Goodbyes

They call me...well I dont know exactly what they call me. Since last year people turn to whisper about me as I walk down the hallways. Why? Well it's a long story, but before I tell you that, let me tell you about me first. When I was a little kid, about three or four my parents got a divorce. I don't remember why, or who moved where and when but I ended up with my dad. I haven't seen my mother since then, last I heard she was in Pennsylvania. Anyway, so after that happened my dad changed, he's not the same now. Bitter and old and wants everything his way, ever since then my life has been pretty bad. Okay, now you know that lets get back to what's wrong with my social life. When we were about five, Christi and I met; her dad and my mom working together and us being in the same kindergarten class. We had inseparable ever since. In 3rd grade Deena moved to town and Christi and I let her sit with us at lunch. The three of us ruled the school from then till 8th grade. Christi and Deena were the cheerleader, basketball, baseball type of girls who always seemed to have a boyfriend. Me? I was the one who always got A's and didn't do any sports or go to any games.So, I was sitting at home one day, reading November Blues, when Christi texted me: hey wat u up 2
Me: nothin readin bein bored
Christi: so same ol same ol?
Me: ya I guess wbu?
Christi: nothing watchin a movie w/ deena waitin for the party to start
Me: whers your parents?
Christi: not home
Me: and they let you have a party?
Christi: haha no but Phil and Dylan r over here, they brought the beer so we just gotta wait till people start showin up
Me: girl u gonna get hurt remember last time you got drunk?
Christi: nah ill b fine u shoul come ova!
Me: no way im not getting n trub 2, or worse have a prego scare
Christi: your such a goody 2 shoes!!
Me: im not the one gonna get preg at 16!
Christi: excuse me? If that's th way u wanna b then find someone else to talk to wtf stace
So there it was, we got in that little stupid fight which caused me to go from hangs with the populars to nobody. I didn't know at the time but Christi had already started texting people, making up rumors about me. Deena, being Christi's only best friend now, of course was right beside her texting other people for Christi. What rumors did they start? Well let's just say when I went to school it went something like this:LOOK! It's the whore! You know, the one that tried to convince Dylan to 'forget about Deena and do it with her?' They went on and on, Christi and Deena thought of more things to torture me with every day. One day I opened my locker to be greeted by a bucket of I think syrup, milk, melted chocolate, and feathers. Of course with my luck the nurse was at the elementary school and my dad was at work so I had to go to the bathroom and try to clean myself up. The only person I had left was Jake, my dog. He was a little Jack Russell Terrier, my mom gave him to me a long time ago before she left. My dad was always trying to get rid of him, give him away to his ex girlfriend or trying to guilt me into it but I wouldn't give in no matter what he said. So when I need something to cry on or hug Jake was always there.